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Friday, November 17th, 2006
2:21 pm	you know, this habit of eating late at night is still here and i can't break it. it's a very very very bad habit and it costs me, if not gain, than at least this stale-mate. i am not losing, i am not gaining. but i do want to lose. i want the last 5#s gone. gah. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
11:40 am	nothing to report i am still in limbo as far as weight loss goes. i am not sure why i can't get motivated but it just does not seem to happen. not that i don't think about it, i certainly do. it's kind of hard to explain. i am not in the "mood" perhaps? it's vague, i know, but i don't know how else to phrase it. my weight over the last month though crept up another pound or two, depending on the day. i need to get a grip on things before the holidays start or i will be gaining way too much. i am ok to be at 116 but even now, at 117-118 #s I am starting to feel a littl uncomfortable. if anyone has any motivational tips, i would like to hear them. i need motivation. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 19th, 2006
2:11 pm	ok, i freaked out yesterday - my weight jumped from 116 to 118 in a week. today i am at 117 so i think it'll go down again. i due to have my period next week so some of it may be due to water retention. still, this is not what i want to see on the scale. i am ok with staying at 116 for a while but i don't want to go up for sure. i know full well why i am not losing weight. it's time-related. first, i have been on vacation (not as much exercise + more eating). second, i had a few social obligations in the form of weddings within one month. one i was in and that was a lot of work and cut into my time. and last but not least, i have been sick for a week with a cold. yes, a cold in the summer, it feels awful. so, i have not exercised enough for about a month now. i have also not been eating as well. i re-started the exercise program now - went to the gym yesterday and did ok. though my chest hurt and my cardio is for shit. i am still not 100% healthy. but i felt so good about finally exercising! it was all worth it. now i have to get my eating in order as well. mainly, i need to stop eating at night. it's a habit i don't seem to be able to break. even yesterday i snacked once i got home from the gym. i need to concentrate on this. with any luck and a good deal of dedication i hope to start the weight loss again. for now, i am ok with not gaining. 116 is a pretty comfortable weight but i do want to get to 110 first and then see if i want to keep going. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 5th, 2006
10:44 am	yay for me i am back from vacation and i did not gain more than a pound. that's amazing considering that i ate a lot of stuff. i am proud of myself. hope everyone is well. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
9:10 am	i haven't written here in a while but i do read my friend's list. i am just short on time and don't have anything particularly exciting to say anyway. so don't forget me. :) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 26th, 2006
10:13 am	*sigh* i don't want to be at work. don't wannnaaaaaaaaaa! (Comment on this)
Monday, May 15th, 2006
11:35 am	there is one thing that i started doing in the past two months or so that i don't like. i eat very late at night. partly, it is because my boyfriend does not like to eat alone and waits until i come home. ideally, i would not eat past 7:30 pm. on the days when i go to the gym after work i used to eat a light snack before the gym and then drink soy milk on the way home in the car right after the gym, around 9 pm. now i tend to come home by 9:30 pm and then have a meal at 10 pm. it is usually a small meal, but still, it is not enough time between going to bed and eating, only an hour and a half at best. i don't like doing this but i also understand that my boyfriend does not want to eat alone. it doesn't help that i am usually a little bit hungry so i eat not just for company but because i actually do want to eat. but that's the point - going to bed just slightly hungry is ok with me and probably helps me lose weight. i think i will try to just have some hot tea and keep him company while he eats but not actually have any solid food. i think it may work. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 4th, 2006
4:39 pm	i am in sore need of a break. i think that being stressed and not having time leads to me overeating. though things are easier in warm weather for me anyway. but, let's face it, i want to lose another 10-15 #s and i really will need to work for those. and to work i need concentration. and i am distracted with other things. how can i stay focused in a situation like that? i am not sure how to handle this. (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 13th, 2006
10:23 am	i went to a seder yesterday and ate way too much. :-( in addition, i was not able to exercise on monday or tuesday, as i normally do. (and obviously not yesterday either.) i will go tonight for two hours but i am afraid of gaining this week. i hope not. i'll do my best to be good for the rest of the week. and maybe i can exercise during the weekend. we'll see. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 10th, 2006
7:50 pm	i am here :) i am kind of stuck... well, right now i am stuck at work and missed 2 of my gym classes :( i've been here 11 hours now, not counting 45 minutes for lunch. boooo.... i hope to leave in the next half an hour but am not sure if i'll be able to. that's that. i am busy. very busy. i will write more and will come back, i promise, but now is a very bad time. and i know that it is a matter of priorities. unfortunately, job is always on top because having an income is not an option and i must work to do that. so, as i said above, that's that. i am eating, at least, more or else healthy. it's the exercise that is lacking. (Comment on this)
Monday, March 20th, 2006
2:58 pm	ooof. :) back. will start with my routine tomorrow. hope everyone is well. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
2:55 pm	i met my goal for the week. consistency would be key. so far, i am bouncing up and down. next week is period... again. i will have a lot of travel in the next month both for business and for pleasure where i will not be able to keep daily logs on lj. i am suspending this log for now. i am still keeping track in fitday thought. i'll resume at the end of march. hopefull, i'll be at least three pounds lighter by then. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 24th, 2006
8:44 am	day 4 feb 24: 116.4 #s feb 23: 117.2 #s feb 22: 117 #s feb 21: 118 #s FOOD Corn flakes, Kellogg 1 cup (102) Blueberries, raw 0.25 cup (20) Milk, cow's, fluid, whole 1 cup (150) Banana, raw 1 medium (109) Vegetarian vegetable soup, prepared with water 2 cup (145) Raspberries, red, raw 0.25 cup (15) Strawberries, raw 3 small (6) Oranges, raw, Florida 2 fruit, (130) Mixed salad greens, raw 1.5 cup, shredded or chopped (14) Walnuts 3 nut (78) Tea, leaf, unsweetened 2 mug (5) Rice, cooked with coconut milk (Arroz con coco) 0.5 cup (266) Chow fun noodles with meat and vegetables 1.25 cup (240) calories = 1279 i had everything but dinner already. dinner is coconut rice and stir-fried rice noodles with chicken and assorted vegetables... sort of a thai-food inspired dinner that my boyfriend is making. :) i'll just have to stick to these amounts. i know that coconut rice has a whole lot of calories and i cannot have more than half a cup of it. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
9:49 am	day 3 feb 23: 117.2 #s feb 22: 117 #s feb 21: 118 #s FOOD Milk, cow's, fluid, whole 1 cup (150) Corn flakes, Kellogg 1 cup (102) Blueberries, raw 0.25 cup (20) Tea, leaf, unsweetened 3 mug (7) Raspberries, red, raw 0.75 cup (45) Grapes, European type, adherent skin, raw 1.5 cup, seedless (170) Banana, raw 1 medium (109) Salmon, baked or broiled 3 oz, boneless, cooked (146) Vegetarian vegetable soup, prepared with water 1.5 cup (108) Oranges, raw, Florida 2 fruit, (130) Gelatin dessert 0.25 cup (35) calories = 1023 EXERCISE strength training, 1 hr kickboxing, 1 hr (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
9:43 am	day 2 feb 22: 117 #s feb 21: 118 #s FOOD Bread, whole wheat, 100% 3 regular slice (207) Roe, sturgeon 3 tablespoon (121) Butter, stick, unsalted 1 pat (36) Grapes, European type, adherent skin, raw 1.5 cup, seedless (170) Luna Bar - 170cals 1.69 oz (170) Banana, raw 1 medium (109) Oatmeal, cooked, instant, fat not added in cooking 0.6 packet, dry, yields (103) Cabbage, green, raw 2 cup, shredded (35) Salmon, baked or broiled 3.5 oz, boneless, cooked (170) Cream sauce, 2 tablespoon (143) Mixed salad greens, raw 2 cup, shredded or chopped (18) Salad dressing, home recipe, vinegar and oil 0.5 tablespoon (35) Walnuts 0.15 cup, shelled (98) Raspberries, red, raw 0.25 cup (15) Alcoholic beverage, wine, table, white 1 fl oz (20) Cake, sponge, prepared from recipe 1 piece (187) calories so far = 1637 lots of calories today. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
9:02 am	day 1 feb 21: 118 #s FOOD Grapefruit, raw 0.5 large (53) Cake, sponge, prepared from recipe 1 piece (187) Vegetarian vegetable soup, prepared with water 3 cup (217) Plum, raw 1 plum (36) Danish pastry, with cheese 1 medium (419) Yogurt, plain, whole milk 1 cup (150) Cabbage, green, raw 3 cup, shredded (52) Milk, Edensoy Extra, ready-to-drink, not baby's 7 fl oz (112) Duck, roasted, skin eaten 1 oz, with bone, cooked (60) calories 1288 EXERCISE kickboxing, 1 hr i am estimating my calories high here, i figure it's safer this way. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 20th, 2006
8:54 am	i am starting over i stepped on the scale today and it told me i weighed 119 #s. i think it is lying but i also think that i was not able to stay focused as much as i need to up to this point. i am just eating in the wrong manner and the wrong things. so, tomorrow will be day one again. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 17th, 2006
9:16 am	day 14 feb 17: 116.4 #s feb 16: 116.8 #s feb 15: 116 #s feb 14: 116.4 #s feb 13: 118.4 #s feb 11-12: ~117 #s feb 10: 116.6 #s feb 9: 118 #s feb 8: 117 #s feb 7: 116 #s feb 5-6: 117 #s feb 4: 116.6 #s feb 3: 116.4 #s feb 1-2: 117 #s jan 31: 118 #s FOOD Cake, sponge, prepared from recipe 1 piece (187) Milk, calcium fortified, cow's, fluid, whole 0.35 cup (53) Raspberries, red, raw 1.25 cup (75) Bagel, with raisins 1 medium (156) Cheese, cream 1 tablespoon (51) Vegetarian vegetable soup, prepared with water 3 cup (217) Yogurt, plain, whole milk 0.5 cup (75) Fennel, bulb, raw 1 cup, sliced (27) Cookie, chocolate, sandwich, with extra filling 1 medium sandwich (70) Rice, white, cooked, regular, fat added in cooking 1 cup, cooked (263) Beef steak, broiled or baked, lean and fat eaten 2 oz, boneless, cooked (144) Bacon or side pork, fresh, cooked 2 oz, raw (yield after cooking) (92) Mixed salad greens, raw 1 cup, shredded or chopped (9) Blackberries, raw 0.5 cup (37) Peach nectar, canned, with added ascorbic acid 0.25 cup (34) calories = 1491 i am not quite sure of the weight today. my scale was all over the place again, from 114 to 117.8 #s. it seemed to favor 116.4 a bit and it makes sense so that's what i am putting for today. (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 16th, 2006
9:33 am	day 13 feb 16: 116.8 #s feb 15: 116 #s feb 14: 116.4 #s feb 13: 118.4 #s feb 11-12: ~117 #s feb 10: 116.6 #s feb 9: 118 #s feb 8: 117 #s feb 7: 116 #s feb 5-6: 117 #s feb 4: 116.6 #s feb 3: 116.4 #s feb 1-2: 117 #s jan 31: 118 #s FOOD Bread, whole wheat, 100% 2 regular slice (138) Peanut butter 1 tablespoon (95) Tea, leaf, unsweetened 1 mug (8 fl oz) (2) Cake, sponge, prepared from recipe 0.75 piece (140) Plum, raw 1 plum (36) Vegetarian vegetable soup, prepared with water 5 cup (362) Fennel, bulb, raw 1 cup, sliced (27) Chocolate, dark .7 oz (104) Croissant 1 mini croissant (114) Muffin, fruit and/or nuts 0.5 medium muffin (79) Yogurt, plain, whole milk 0.5 cup (8 fl oz) (75) Pineapple, raw 0.5 cup, diced (38) calories = 1210 EXERCISE strength training, 1 hr kickboxing, 1 hr i ate everything but yogurt by now. also, i ate a lot of crap but the calorie count is withing my range (and i estimated high) so i won't' worry. i ended up eating just a little bit of yogurt, i wasn't very hungry. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
8:59 am	day 12 feb 15: 116 #s feb 14: 116.4 #s feb 13: 118.4 #s feb 11-12: ~117 #s feb 10: 116.6 #s feb 9: 118 #s feb 8: 117 #s feb 7: 116 #s feb 5-6: 117 #s feb 4: 116.6 #s feb 3: 116.4 #s feb 1-2: 117 #s jan 31: 118 #s FOOD Cheerios 1 cup (110) Tea, leaf, unsweetened 3 mug (7) Milk, calcium fortified, cow's, fluid, whole 1 cup (151) Truffles 1 piece (124) Chicken or turkey vegetable soup, home recipe 2 cup (265) Fennel, bulb, raw 1.5 cup, sliced (40) Plum, raw 1 plum (36) Radish, raw 5 medium (5) Orange, raw 1 small (45) Carrots, raw 1 cup, strips or slices 52 0 12 1 Spaghetti, cooked, enriched, with added salt 1.5 cup 296 1 60 10 Olive oil 0.5 tablespoon (60) Tomato sauce 0.2 cup (15) Cake, sponge, prepared from recipe 1 piece (187) Cheese, Swiss 1.5 cubic inch (85) calories so far = 1478 EXERCISE well... i washed the dishes and made a soup... but that doesn't really count. i overate a bit today. should've not had the chocolate truffles. we'll see what the scale says tomorrow. (2 Comments |Comment on this)